the torrent

the torrent arises to shake, bounce and float every hitherto unexplored, unmoved brain tissue when I attempt to analyze the question of my future. Where do I want to be? What can I do best? What should I choose as my career? These handfuls of questions are capable of bringing me into a state of vagueness where no answer seems better than other yet every answer proves itself better than every other options. vagueness ... yes, thats what it is... a state of unclarity and its continuity is more disturbing than its occurance, because it has been so contiuous that it lasted everytime I tried to arise the "torrent". The first question that founds the base of the torrent is where I want to be. This seemingly easily answerable question can go upto an extent of confusion that puzzles badly. I really dont know. Where do I wanna be?? an engineer?.. yes .. i like this work .. engineering stuff.. i enjoy working in labs.... well a manager after mba?...... yes .. thats what I always wanted to be...... my imagination could never think that choosing one option out of given two can be so prolonged process... amazing .. hmm . The next question comes ,i.e. what can I do best??? I really dont know ... simply I dont know... may be as an engineer I can succeed.. may be I can do managerial things better than engineering... The thing is that I have no experience of doing any one of them in an industry. How can I judge ??? Do I know my weaknesses ??? probably NOT... probably what I believe as my weak points are really my weak points. The third and final question for which I employed my mind and energy definitely curtailing my fun-time(most precious), is this ... What should I choose as my career? To answer this I must go back to my first question which is still waiting for a finite answer ,ie., where do I want to be ???
This is really a deadlock, an example of a perfect deadlock, its like the chakarvahue, entrace into which is very trivial and only needs arising the questions but escaping from it is not as trivial as it seems to be. anyone Help me out to get out of this....

But is it really necessary to locate these answers. I particularly am trying to find them because my senior and teachers have advised me to do so, but the same advised was given to me when I was younger and had to choose optional subject after 10th standard. I really never gave thought to these question but did what I was asked to do, accepted life as it came and I reached to this stage. and I think I am really happy, inspite of the fact that my subject are not the once which I wanted to study. So I think, though the seniors ask us to find the answers to these questions and set the goals accordingly, one may not worry about them much if these questions seems unanswerable even after many tries and one can go on doing whatever he/she is doing. Time will factor everything. Let the time decide and tell what is best to do. So, I think I should actually prepare for my exams like cat,gre etc.. and stop worrying whether I want to be an engineer or a manager because results of these exams is capable of explicitly answering this question -- what can I do best and discriminating between the two options. The first question was -- where do I want to be ? well, if there existed one wish than I would have certainly capable of answering this question but unfortunately there remains more than one wishes. In any case I have to choose one of my wish over another. So now it really does not matter whether I become and engineer or a manager because in any case one wish will be gardened and another will just remain a wish. So lets move on the third question -- What should I choose as my career? I think once the results declare the answer to the second question, I will pretty easily answer this question because it is simply a function of 1st and 2nd. So now I think, I should sit back and let the results of exams be the judge of my future rather than worrying about it. Seriously, judging own self is the most difficult task one can ever encounter but did I make the torrent silent, silent forever.... yes! silent like the stillness of water, I dont want to think, it is still brutal, vulnerable to repetition.