blamed for a crime that never happened, hated because i deceived someone, but deceive because that someone believes i deceived, and pained because i want to show her that it is not me..... 3 months..... 3 months have flied since i was incriminated by few unfounded statements but yet uncomfortable, yet to be calmed, yet the storm is going in this heart.... how can i bear blames like this for so long when, i bet, u cannt live a single day with rest if accused for something unreal, smthing that u never did.
in the first month, I hided the truths coz they beared a possiblity of bringing more misunderstandings and during this period i was never taken for trust for a second probably. She started talking to me, for she forgave me ..... :) forgave me for what.... for what for the crime that she fabricated, for the blame that she enjoyed pouring upon me. After that having fed up of this, I told her the truth and as I had thought, it brought nothing but havoc..... and from now on... she enjoyed having disbelief upon me..... and would say, kabhi tu ye bolta hai, kabhi tu wo bolta hai .. i am nt able to trust..... ok fine .... for almost one month, i told her the truth and she was never believing on it and subsequently I was awarded for a "story-fabrication-award". After that seeing no improvement in relations, I said lies to her... and what was remained after that.... disbelieves.... not a penny of trust.... and ashes of a burned relation..... for the goodness sake, I tried for 3 months to make her believe that i m nt that person, only and solely because I thought we shared a good relation and it was only because of some misunderstandings bt now... given up... I dont want to look at her face, and y would I, when she doesnt care? but once, once in a lifetime, i want to show her that it was not me. there is really no place for her in my heart now except purgatory, bt the day i will show my cleanness, i will remove her from there also.... hoped u could have sm idea of how painful it is... bt nw i dont wish for it
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Thursday, August 30, 2007
painful break-ups
Effective communication is one of the biggest art that exist in the world today. Not every other person in the world can communicate his/her thoughts completely, impressively and convingly. Here I am not talking about daily communication. Day to day communication is so much practised that we can do it very glibly, comfortably. What I am talking about is the situations when expressing ideas and thoughts can actually complicate the other person's perception. Like the one picture you see on the left.There is a guy in the pic, who has expressed his love to a girl and the girl wants him to forget about the love thing and not to love her anymore. The girl thinks that he still loves her and then she always try to avoid him, the guy can not suffer this being avoided and tries to explain things. All he wants to say is that he loves her so much that he cant stop loving her and at the same time he is not seeking any favour from her. He just has a hope that might someday become true and even if this hope never seems to be true, he will not make any deliberate efforts to make it true and get her. But the girl wants him to stop loving her, but he can not accept that he has stopped loving her and the more he tries to explain this thing to her, the situation keep getting more and more complicated because the girls sees his explanation as a try to show his love, win sympathy and emotions of the girl, and finally the love. An explanation that can complicated things further....!!! . Of course, one can argue that why does the guy need to say the truth that he loves her and all that ..... alll he can simply say is that he does not love her anymore and can get rid of this situation, but the problem with this guy is that he really loves her and can not lie to her. It is not just one case, there are many such cases around us, in our friend circle, in our family, in the world around us, where tries to distangle things further adds to entangle them. Like painful breaking up of friendships, I believe most of them happens because of misunderstanding, misunderstandings that are tried to be resolved but all those efforts only adds to more and more misunderstandings leading them to such a state that the only one final solution remains -- "break up".
It is really painful to see such relations breaking up for no reason. As a witness of some similiar dillemas, I can feel the pain that both sides suffer. Sometimes it becomes heart breakening not only to both persons but yet such situations happens, happens every other day in one or another part of the world. In most of these cases, the other person is someone very close to us, someone who understands us better and I suprise, we become unable to explains things to such a person, to make him/her understand when the need arises....how poor we remain on the communication fronts.
Some time ago, I saw a similiar break up, a break up between two lovers. None of them wanted the relation to end and become separate.... but yet they broke up with each other, became separated, and then finally stopped talking to each other. In earlier days after the break-up, they would talk more often but then they started talking less and less and now they rarely talk. They sometimes see each other on the road, turn their face and walk away like they never knew each other. But yet love exist between them, they love each other, still they want to be same like what they were, but the misunderstadings between them have grew up to such an extent that there every step to get back to earlier relationship fails and now they have become exhausted by these failures of making their relationship like what it was.
Sad but true.... sometimes we are really poor when it comes to communicate our thoughts effectively.
Friday, August 24, 2007
Aug 23, 07 GRE-1330
This was a day full of nervousness, uncomfortable feeling, as I had my GRE exam in the evening, the exam long awaited, the exam that carried some expectation, some hopes and consequentially a lot of hardwork and time I had dedicated for it, not to get a score of 1500 but to touch 1250. Yes, that was my target, only 1250.
I did not have proper sleep a day before, and it had cause some tension, mainly because even thinking of answering one question wrong in Gre-Quant is the sin that one guy with poor vocabulary can never afford to commit and the insomania last night had increased probability of wrong answer by a bit, the bit that mattered a lot and could cause a lot.
Among this tension, I tried to sleep in the day but unfortunately couldnt and wasted the time I could have used revising my english vocabulary reading all those lexicons that always confounded me and made fascinated about the lexicographer. How come anyone remember all these words. Well, it was already 11 am and I had to leave from college by 2:30 to reach the prometric center by 4 pm. In these last 3 hrs, I finally reviewed some of the practice math questions to brush up my concepts and mental tissues, had my lunch at 2 pm and then reached prometric by 4 . Soon after the initial formalities, like filling up a form and showing the required documents etc., a guy came who spoke unfaltering fluent english in the speed faster than I had ever heard before. Half of what he was speaking was getting off without landing in the brain. Finally after all of his instruction that were already written at ten different places, he asked us to be ready for entering into the examination chamber. Soon after this, my name was called and before I could enter I was asked to deposit whatever I had in a locker including pencil, pen, wallet and keys. For a moment this amazed me, it was the 1st kind of exam where students are asked to submit there pen, pencil and are allowed to write the exam using the only pencils provided by the examiner.
Fine I got into and 2 really boring issue came, on which I would have been loathful and shown paramount reluctance to even to think(Gre-people are really great at finding the most boring possible topics and giving them as issue of your essay). But soon completion of this 1:15 hrs section made me relaxed and after this I was allowed to take a 10 minute break which I found really helpful and a need. After this I prayed for the verbal section as I wanted to attempt my verbal section first, because in case of attending quant first, doubt in 1-2 question of Quant (even if the reason would have been ambiguity) could have pressurized me and have effected my performance in verbal as well. But finally, the Quant came first, I completed this section with more than 10 mins remaining. But in the end I had doubt in 1 answer and I was almost sure that I was not getting 800. After this quant section, did all the questions of verbal as well, though I felt short of time while attempting 6 questions in last 2 mins. It was basically the result of that 85 lines passage that came in appearance when 10 mins were remaining. I did the passage and now 5 mins were remaing when another passage came and with the advent of this new passage, I knew I was fucked now. It was really terrible when there were 6 questions and 2 minutes but well, somehow I managed to attempt all and escape from the penalty.
After doing some click and committing that yes, I wished to see my scores and not to cancel them, the software showed me my score(by the way the software, created by microsoft was really good, the processings were quick and one can easily find the information one may need during the exam). The first glance at 800, which was my quant score, soothed me little bit, as it was my least target. And the second glance at 530 made me yet more happier. I dont want to say that 1330 is a very good score but it is what I am happy with. So, with the advent of this moment in my life, now the life is now at a new track where I have kept all my books aside, as I am sick of them now(and dont want to even see their face) and have started doing all those things that I would love doing and sparing my time with.
With this, my life-train had come to a station where I could relax and chill for sometime but soome I realized the fact that running on this track is also as important as relaxing and chilling. My next job happens to be selecting universities, which is perhaps a difficult task with a profile like mine, having the most weird diversities as in all my B.Tech., I did the things that I really enjoyed doing and never ever bothered choosing things that were related and went in one stream. Scattered different kind of work, rather than one more coherent, is sure giving hard time in choosing right program, at some good university, that matches my profile.
But the moral from all this I draw is - The ambitions never end and the life-train will keep running, relax and chill but keep running as well.......
I did not have proper sleep a day before, and it had cause some tension, mainly because even thinking of answering one question wrong in Gre-Quant is the sin that one guy with poor vocabulary can never afford to commit and the insomania last night had increased probability of wrong answer by a bit, the bit that mattered a lot and could cause a lot.
Among this tension, I tried to sleep in the day but unfortunately couldnt and wasted the time I could have used revising my english vocabulary reading all those lexicons that always confounded me and made fascinated about the lexicographer. How come anyone remember all these words. Well, it was already 11 am and I had to leave from college by 2:30 to reach the prometric center by 4 pm. In these last 3 hrs, I finally reviewed some of the practice math questions to brush up my concepts and mental tissues, had my lunch at 2 pm and then reached prometric by 4 . Soon after the initial formalities, like filling up a form and showing the required documents etc., a guy came who spoke unfaltering fluent english in the speed faster than I had ever heard before. Half of what he was speaking was getting off without landing in the brain. Finally after all of his instruction that were already written at ten different places, he asked us to be ready for entering into the examination chamber. Soon after this, my name was called and before I could enter I was asked to deposit whatever I had in a locker including pencil, pen, wallet and keys. For a moment this amazed me, it was the 1st kind of exam where students are asked to submit there pen, pencil and are allowed to write the exam using the only pencils provided by the examiner.
Fine I got into and 2 really boring issue came, on which I would have been loathful and shown paramount reluctance to even to think(Gre-people are really great at finding the most boring possible topics and giving them as issue of your essay). But soon completion of this 1:15 hrs section made me relaxed and after this I was allowed to take a 10 minute break which I found really helpful and a need. After this I prayed for the verbal section as I wanted to attempt my verbal section first, because in case of attending quant first, doubt in 1-2 question of Quant (even if the reason would have been ambiguity) could have pressurized me and have effected my performance in verbal as well. But finally, the Quant came first, I completed this section with more than 10 mins remaining. But in the end I had doubt in 1 answer and I was almost sure that I was not getting 800. After this quant section, did all the questions of verbal as well, though I felt short of time while attempting 6 questions in last 2 mins. It was basically the result of that 85 lines passage that came in appearance when 10 mins were remaining. I did the passage and now 5 mins were remaing when another passage came and with the advent of this new passage, I knew I was fucked now. It was really terrible when there were 6 questions and 2 minutes but well, somehow I managed to attempt all and escape from the penalty.
After doing some click and committing that yes, I wished to see my scores and not to cancel them, the software showed me my score(by the way the software, created by microsoft was really good, the processings were quick and one can easily find the information one may need during the exam). The first glance at 800, which was my quant score, soothed me little bit, as it was my least target. And the second glance at 530 made me yet more happier. I dont want to say that 1330 is a very good score but it is what I am happy with. So, with the advent of this moment in my life, now the life is now at a new track where I have kept all my books aside, as I am sick of them now(and dont want to even see their face) and have started doing all those things that I would love doing and sparing my time with.
With this, my life-train had come to a station where I could relax and chill for sometime but soome I realized the fact that running on this track is also as important as relaxing and chilling. My next job happens to be selecting universities, which is perhaps a difficult task with a profile like mine, having the most weird diversities as in all my B.Tech., I did the things that I really enjoyed doing and never ever bothered choosing things that were related and went in one stream. Scattered different kind of work, rather than one more coherent, is sure giving hard time in choosing right program, at some good university, that matches my profile.
But the moral from all this I draw is - The ambitions never end and the life-train will keep running, relax and chill but keep running as well.......
Saturday, August 04, 2007
interview 4 SABA : God, dont give such interviewer please
interview 4 saba
yes guys come in .....(we were 3 guys and the interviewer-1 called us. we went in ... )
in-1 : have a seat...
we : thank u sir (we = I, adarsh and praneet)
in-1 ok guys,, the same question that i asked to previous batches... there is a table of form student_id, student_name, course_id, course_name, fees. One student can have many courses, one course can be taken by many students.
we: ok sir
in-1: draw a normalized data structure for this...
me: sir, we have to draw normalized data structure? (totally blank by the term normalized data structure... first time ever , i heard this term)
in-1: yes, normalized data structure.
previously i was thinking that it should be normalized database but when the interviewer again used normalized data structure, i was just clean blowed.
me(again): normalized data structure or normalized database?
in-1: yes, normalized data structure
me = totally blank,,, thinking whats the normalized data structure.... thinking for 3-4 minutes.... recalling all the concepts that i had learned.... couldnt find any clue and again asked...
me: sir,,, we have to draw normalized tables
in-1: yes, you have to draw normalized tables
me thinking cant this bullshit interviewers said normalized database. ok fine.
me : sir, the fees is dependent on student_id and course_id both or only on student_id or only on course_id.
in-1: what it should be?
me: it can be either case.(thinking why these ppl dont ask questions clearly, such ambiguous question, dont know what u r asking, neither u explain the question)
he didnt tell me any dependencies till the end.
me: ok sir.... created 4 tables
ok...After this funny question next question comes
in-1: animals can be divided in two classes : 1. mammels 2. birds. both can fly,swim,walk. draw class diagram for this showing all three classes.
me: sir, both can do all 3 activities?
in-1: yes
me drew the 3rd figure you see on top.
in1: in ur class class diagram, an elephant can fly.
me: ok. (thinking then why he said yes before.... i asked the same think. ok let it be) drew the 2nd class diagram you see on top.
in1: can a bird swim ... yes duck swims but all birds dont swim.... how will u show that in ur class diagram....
me thinking you only classified animals in 2 parts , one mammel and another bird .... pahle hi bata deta na ki tumko aur classify karna hai ....
me: sir we can create subclasses of bird class and override the method that we dont require.
in-1: how will u do that?
me drew the 1st figure you see on top .... sir we can have different method bodies for swim method in both subclasses ....
he did nt seem to be happy
me: another solution can be to have 3 interfaces , one for swim,one for walk, one for fly and then implement these 3 interfaces as applicable. So for a bird that can walk and fly but cant swim , we can implement walk interface and fly interface and for a bird that can do all 3 activities , we can implement all 3 interfaces.
in-1 : ok i am done...
now the in-2 comes into the picture:
in-2: asking in-3, should be ask them that question
arrey puchna hai jo pucho but dhang se puchna.... at least give complete question... dont use question hiding ....
in-2: do you understand "is a " relationship and "has a " relationship.
a discussion on these relationship
in-2: i have a linkedlist class and i want to implement stack. should i use "is a " relationship or "has a " relationship.
me: sir, stack a kind of linkedlist where removal and insertion are restricted. Like in linkedlist we can insert anywhere and remove from anywhere but in stack, we can inserted only in the end and we can remove only from the end. So we should use "is a " relationship.
in-3: what can go wrong if i use "is a " relationship?
me: thinking for sometime.... then in stack class we can be able to access data member specific to linklist. superclass member can be visible in subclass, so unwanted linkedlist's member can also be accessed in stack class and a class that inherits stack can use super operator to access linkedlist's member lalblablab ..... i answered this wrongly but this question can be better asked as whether we should extend linkedlist class to implement stack or we should use linkedlist class' instance as data member to implement stack. but the interviewer confused a lot in "is a "/"has a ","is a "/"has a " ... i mean at least state the question clearly... why to confuse candidates in questions only.... and by the time i am critically thinking of my own answer, the interviewer pops up to ask me to tell the flaw in another guy's answer.
1st question was totally bullshit... you dont know dependencies and are baffled with normalized data structure
2nd question ... you classify one thing into 2 and then blame the candidate that he should have further classified the 2's. If that is the case, then you should have stated previously only na, that further classification can be done if required.
question 3: here interviewer was asking things like we have done gross mistake and we are his servant. I really hated that guy but what could I do.... anyway I wanted to sit in placement for saba, after the ppt also.. wrote the test but in the interview I changed my mind... Cant work with these guys.... who just know how to torture candidates but nothing else
finally 17 out of 97, i was there in 17
7 out of 17,,, i was not there in 7... but this time .... no regrets.... but the interviewer were seriously not good.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Mind vs Heart
The mind and the heart, a pair belonging to one single stream of river but flowing on the two opposites sides of the lagoon, at least thats the state of my mind right now. The thing that the mind says is not acceptable to the heart and what heart says does not taste my mind and I haven't and probably cann't figure out whether it is my mind who is writing this or my heart or some other third entity who listens to both but acts onto only what it likes.
It has been last one week that I am not able to concentrate on what I should but playing with only what I want, even in the ambience of the complete knowledge and awareness that my placements, gre everything is at the next door and time will fly without any whistle. It is a deadly combo when both of them do not work concertedly.
From last one week, I have been working on my project, my so called very interested camera project, doing all the things concocted to it, only and only because I love doing it. I know it is important to do other things, specially the most important thing at this stage of my life,i.e., improving my english vocabulary and the language, solving placement papers(at least few if not some, as i know my heart will never let me do all) and concentrating on my papers that possess sinewy potential of laying the base stone of my future but still I spare all my time on just one project and the remaining hours , when I feel myself lazy, palling and laggard, I never miss purging them in a prodigal manner for my hobbies that include hacking, hacking on the internet.
It sucks and it eats every bit of my mind when I find myself released off my own control, wandering freely without any direction, and the worst part of it brews when I find it more and more uncontrolled, not giving heed to things that matters but just doing things aimlessly, shirking from the important things.
They say, you write your emotions on a paper whenever a toofan of them starts sheathing the peace and your enervativeness and the next moment, you will be free of them. This was also an attempt to lessen its intensity.
But still it bothers me, and it will, probably, bother me till I catch the right track again. Let it bother me, that it perhaps the only solution of my unattentiveness for the important thing
--- a mind or a heart.
(I dont know my name)
Everything is illusion, I can feel it again.
It has been last one week that I am not able to concentrate on what I should but playing with only what I want, even in the ambience of the complete knowledge and awareness that my placements, gre everything is at the next door and time will fly without any whistle. It is a deadly combo when both of them do not work concertedly.
From last one week, I have been working on my project, my so called very interested camera project, doing all the things concocted to it, only and only because I love doing it. I know it is important to do other things, specially the most important thing at this stage of my life,i.e., improving my english vocabulary and the language, solving placement papers(at least few if not some, as i know my heart will never let me do all) and concentrating on my papers that possess sinewy potential of laying the base stone of my future but still I spare all my time on just one project and the remaining hours , when I feel myself lazy, palling and laggard, I never miss purging them in a prodigal manner for my hobbies that include hacking, hacking on the internet.
It sucks and it eats every bit of my mind when I find myself released off my own control, wandering freely without any direction, and the worst part of it brews when I find it more and more uncontrolled, not giving heed to things that matters but just doing things aimlessly, shirking from the important things.
They say, you write your emotions on a paper whenever a toofan of them starts sheathing the peace and your enervativeness and the next moment, you will be free of them. This was also an attempt to lessen its intensity.
But still it bothers me, and it will, probably, bother me till I catch the right track again. Let it bother me, that it perhaps the only solution of my unattentiveness for the important thing
--- a mind or a heart.
(I dont know my name)
Everything is illusion, I can feel it again.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
my hours at my college library
This was written only for a purpose of timepass and avoid boredom, it has no relevance to any person or character. Any resemblance to any real person should be considered as nothing but only a coincedence.
I was sitting in this library to obviate from the merciless boiling heat.The afternoon was really very hot and i had gone to library to sit in the AC in read some good books but after coming here my wish to read books became deemed and I finally started to write anything on anytopic. Because of my limited imagination, I could not thing beyoud what I was seeing and as a result I started myself on library.
temple of education, yes, that is waht the word library stand for. Lost ? well, this is the first time when i am writing about library while sitting in the library. Currently sitting in the middle of the last row, right under the rotating facn, I am feeling like, I am sitting in an unmanned lonely place because few students are here, but believe me, this library of daiict sees very few days when its empty from the pedantic creatures of this institution. Disorganised, yes, that's what this kind of writing is called, but from a man like me, expecting any better that this is nothing except dumbness and a signal of obtuseness basking in your brain. Well where was I ? yes, library. OK. A place meant for study, silent, concentrated and focused study. A place which is assumned to enhance one's power to gain and understand things with the pin-drop silent environment. A place where you find plenty of books covering whole range of subjects from humanity to science to life and culture to politics and news of every corner of the world and last but not the least, a place where you can sit in the calmness and pen an organised, imaginative and creative essays when you find your room at daiict hostel to be heated up by the merciless sun. Library of daiict is just one of the many other libraries of the world. This is a huge library. By 'huge' I mean, it has vast collection of books from all areas essential for an ICT graduate. Moreover collection of novels and books on philosophy, humanity, thoughts and biographies is also one of its kind. Without any discord, I must accept the highness and greatness of this library from the point of quantity and quality of books. In addition to that, this library also has collaborations with one of world's best libraries. Association with institutions like ACM, IEEE etc. add another gem in this library. This association enables students to freely browse and access and read the journels and papers. This must be consider as one of the best part of this library as these jounels and papers cost too much to be affordable by a normal student. And reluctant students will never be bothered to read them if they are not freely available. The library also buys a large number of magzines regularly. Needless to say, there i no pint in any argument raising question over literature that this library offers to its users.
But as having a quality literature is never adequate for a library, if it does not provides a required enviornment to use it. This perhaps is one of the reasons as to why daiict library has
AC cabins, hundreads of chairs and long balanced well furnished tables, neat and clean rooms and walls, even the fans and lights, computers to browse its catalogue and flower-pots to make the air clean, healthy and full of essential elements for better breath, like oxygen.
This was all about this libraries literature and unparelled facilities. Now, it will be a bit useful to tel about the kind of people who visits it regularly. Without giving information on this, I feel I will not do any justice to the greatness and highness of this library.
Well, when I was in my first semester. I would come here sometimes and everytime I came here, I fell asleep. Its environment happens to be too calm and healthy for me that it makes me relax and sleepy. Sit here under the fan and feel the change in yourself. I can assure that loom of sleep over the eyes will definitely become evident any sincere fellow. This is probably one of the main reasons as to why people like me prefer to study in hostel-room rather than at library. It becomes more irritating when one sits in a relaxed pose with legs streched or with head down on the table or yawning and the librarian comes to awake you from your dreamland and gentally urges ," Sit properly, this is library." and then he makes his voice little more gental and polite and whispers, "this is not your room". Can't a student be allowed to sit in a comfortable pose if he/she wants to. This irritating eye of librarian sometimes makes me feel that this library is no better than jail. Though I respect the highness of greatness of this library but everytime I have to take proper care from being escaped by the watching eyes. So martinet rules are pathetic. So, beacause of all this, you cant expect to find a person like me in this library. Obviously sometimes, there are exceptions, like today, when I am sitting on the first floor in middle of last row of first room right under the rotating fan.
So, there remains 2 types of people who come here regularly. One of these two is extremely pedantic people, for whom, the books are the only and ultimate way of learning and concentration of them remaine unconquered by the extra-calm-calmness of this library. They walk very fast and always have one or two books in their handor they carry a bag. Most boys of this category carries books in hand, but the girls of this category rarely carry books in their hand. The girls generally have a bad with one strip which they tuck on their right shoulder. They walk quickly and as they come near the vicinity of the library, their sincerity increase linearly. The deep thought process eating their mental energy starts becoming vaguelessly perspicuitly visible on their facial screen with their eye brows little strained. Well, they cross the gate of the library quickly and then they sit on one of the empty chairs before computer, open iexplorer and browse the catalogue. They dont waste time in thinking the right key-words, or the name of the author, rather they hit the keys with little more pressure than usual and key in the words without looking at the keyboard. It is their regular practice and so, they are habitual to the typing on the keyboard and they dont need to look down at the keys for this. They quickly filter the search results and note down the book-number of the book chosen and then make a beeline to the right shelf among many other shelves of books. Now, their next stpe depends on the outcome of this whole book searching process. If they dont like the book, they again make a beeline to the computers and repeat the whole process otherwise then they start search for a suitable place to read it. They, naturally, dont waste time in meetings and meaningless discussions, rather they quickly decide a vacant seat and starts switching on the lights and fans above that seat, in case they are switched off. In the whole process of switching a fan on, they switch on many other fans and finally they switch off all other unnessarily switch-on fans in one go and it sounds like 'cclkk'.
I have been writing continuously for sometime and it is the fifth page to be filled up. Rest has become the necessity for my hand now. So, now I am taking a 2 minute break. -------
Welcome after the break! Lost? dont bother about it. Well after choosing a seat, they place their hand inside their pockets to bring their cellphone out and put them onto the table. They read concentrately, and even though they look here and there, their face says that there is something else going in their mind, probably thoughts to grasp a concept which they usually call 'fanda'. Their eyes and face moving in right or left does not mean that they are perturbed by the environment. It is their habbit to focus on fanda, they also exibit this property while speaking this sentence. They generally give little more pressure on the word 'fanda'. They love to prepare notes or get zeroxed of some of the chapters. They also use different registers for different subjects. and dont even try to mingle and entagle all subject in only one register. They are generally proactive in underlining paragraph and after excercising all of the above activities, they feel pround on themselves and happiness of being studious sheds the clouds of happiness of tension and become visible on their lips or facial area near it. After sometime of study and feeling happiness, they stand up and walk slowly and stealthily towards the sofas, their new aim is to pick some magzine and take a dose of the knowledge outside the domain of their books or research interests.
My hands are really tired now. Though my typing speed is pretty good and earlier I had thought that I could type the all 13 and 1/2 pages, but now after 6 pages, I have no will to write any more. I had written this to avoid boredom in library. The afternoon was really very hot and i had gone to library to sit in the AC in read some good books but after coming here my wish to read books became deemed and I finally started to write anything on anytopic. Because of my limited imagination, I could not thing beyoud what I was seeing and as a result I started myself on library. Well, I will very soon upload the image of left pages.
I was sitting in this library to obviate from the merciless boiling heat.The afternoon was really very hot and i had gone to library to sit in the AC in read some good books but after coming here my wish to read books became deemed and I finally started to write anything on anytopic. Because of my limited imagination, I could not thing beyoud what I was seeing and as a result I started myself on library.
temple of education, yes, that is waht the word library stand for. Lost ? well, this is the first time when i am writing about library while sitting in the library. Currently sitting in the middle of the last row, right under the rotating facn, I am feeling like, I am sitting in an unmanned lonely place because few students are here, but believe me, this library of daiict sees very few days when its empty from the pedantic creatures of this institution. Disorganised, yes, that's what this kind of writing is called, but from a man like me, expecting any better that this is nothing except dumbness and a signal of obtuseness basking in your brain. Well where was I ? yes, library. OK. A place meant for study, silent, concentrated and focused study. A place which is assumned to enhance one's power to gain and understand things with the pin-drop silent environment. A place where you find plenty of books covering whole range of subjects from humanity to science to life and culture to politics and news of every corner of the world and last but not the least, a place where you can sit in the calmness and pen an organised, imaginative and creative essays when you find your room at daiict hostel to be heated up by the merciless sun. Library of daiict is just one of the many other libraries of the world. This is a huge library. By 'huge' I mean, it has vast collection of books from all areas essential for an ICT graduate. Moreover collection of novels and books on philosophy, humanity, thoughts and biographies is also one of its kind. Without any discord, I must accept the highness and greatness of this library from the point of quantity and quality of books. In addition to that, this library also has collaborations with one of world's best libraries. Association with institutions like ACM, IEEE etc. add another gem in this library. This association enables students to freely browse and access and read the journels and papers. This must be consider as one of the best part of this library as these jounels and papers cost too much to be affordable by a normal student. And reluctant students will never be bothered to read them if they are not freely available. The library also buys a large number of magzines regularly. Needless to say, there i no pint in any argument raising question over literature that this library offers to its users.
But as having a quality literature is never adequate for a library, if it does not provides a required enviornment to use it. This perhaps is one of the reasons as to why daiict library has
AC cabins, hundreads of chairs and long balanced well furnished tables, neat and clean rooms and walls, even the fans and lights, computers to browse its catalogue and flower-pots to make the air clean, healthy and full of essential elements for better breath, like oxygen.
This was all about this libraries literature and unparelled facilities. Now, it will be a bit useful to tel about the kind of people who visits it regularly. Without giving information on this, I feel I will not do any justice to the greatness and highness of this library.
Well, when I was in my first semester. I would come here sometimes and everytime I came here, I fell asleep. Its environment happens to be too calm and healthy for me that it makes me relax and sleepy. Sit here under the fan and feel the change in yourself. I can assure that loom of sleep over the eyes will definitely become evident any sincere fellow. This is probably one of the main reasons as to why people like me prefer to study in hostel-room rather than at library. It becomes more irritating when one sits in a relaxed pose with legs streched or with head down on the table or yawning and the librarian comes to awake you from your dreamland and gentally urges ," Sit properly, this is library." and then he makes his voice little more gental and polite and whispers, "this is not your room". Can't a student be allowed to sit in a comfortable pose if he/she wants to. This irritating eye of librarian sometimes makes me feel that this library is no better than jail. Though I respect the highness of greatness of this library but everytime I have to take proper care from being escaped by the watching eyes. So martinet rules are pathetic. So, beacause of all this, you cant expect to find a person like me in this library. Obviously sometimes, there are exceptions, like today, when I am sitting on the first floor in middle of last row of first room right under the rotating fan.
So, there remains 2 types of people who come here regularly. One of these two is extremely pedantic people, for whom, the books are the only and ultimate way of learning and concentration of them remaine unconquered by the extra-calm-calmness of this library. They walk very fast and always have one or two books in their handor they carry a bag. Most boys of this category carries books in hand, but the girls of this category rarely carry books in their hand. The girls generally have a bad with one strip which they tuck on their right shoulder. They walk quickly and as they come near the vicinity of the library, their sincerity increase linearly. The deep thought process eating their mental energy starts becoming vaguelessly perspicuitly visible on their facial screen with their eye brows little strained. Well, they cross the gate of the library quickly and then they sit on one of the empty chairs before computer, open iexplorer and browse the catalogue. They dont waste time in thinking the right key-words, or the name of the author, rather they hit the keys with little more pressure than usual and key in the words without looking at the keyboard. It is their regular practice and so, they are habitual to the typing on the keyboard and they dont need to look down at the keys for this. They quickly filter the search results and note down the book-number of the book chosen and then make a beeline to the right shelf among many other shelves of books. Now, their next stpe depends on the outcome of this whole book searching process. If they dont like the book, they again make a beeline to the computers and repeat the whole process otherwise then they start search for a suitable place to read it. They, naturally, dont waste time in meetings and meaningless discussions, rather they quickly decide a vacant seat and starts switching on the lights and fans above that seat, in case they are switched off. In the whole process of switching a fan on, they switch on many other fans and finally they switch off all other unnessarily switch-on fans in one go and it sounds like 'cclkk'.
I have been writing continuously for sometime and it is the fifth page to be filled up. Rest has become the necessity for my hand now. So, now I am taking a 2 minute break. -------
Welcome after the break! Lost? dont bother about it. Well after choosing a seat, they place their hand inside their pockets to bring their cellphone out and put them onto the table. They read concentrately, and even though they look here and there, their face says that there is something else going in their mind, probably thoughts to grasp a concept which they usually call 'fanda'. Their eyes and face moving in right or left does not mean that they are perturbed by the environment. It is their habbit to focus on fanda, they also exibit this property while speaking this sentence. They generally give little more pressure on the word 'fanda'. They love to prepare notes or get zeroxed of some of the chapters. They also use different registers for different subjects. and dont even try to mingle and entagle all subject in only one register. They are generally proactive in underlining paragraph and after excercising all of the above activities, they feel pround on themselves and happiness of being studious sheds the clouds of happiness of tension and become visible on their lips or facial area near it. After sometime of study and feeling happiness, they stand up and walk slowly and stealthily towards the sofas, their new aim is to pick some magzine and take a dose of the knowledge outside the domain of their books or research interests.
My hands are really tired now. Though my typing speed is pretty good and earlier I had thought that I could type the all 13 and 1/2 pages, but now after 6 pages, I have no will to write any more. I had written this to avoid boredom in library. The afternoon was really very hot and i had gone to library to sit in the AC in read some good books but after coming here my wish to read books became deemed and I finally started to write anything on anytopic. Because of my limited imagination, I could not thing beyoud what I was seeing and as a result I started myself on library. Well, I will very soon upload the image of left pages.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
nostalgia of college memories
It was when I was browsing an orkut community of my senior batch, who had to say good bye to our college just few days ago after 4 years of engineering, that the feeling of nostalgia gave me a kick. I was going through the posts in the community and a sense of sentimentalness and strong bathetic expression arising from the heart of my seniors was ubiquitously present in all the posts. It made be dumb-founded for a moment. Is that the way one feels when it comes to say bye ? I have seen many such occasions in my life when a person leaves family or something he loves most, I have seen tears rolling down the eyes, but still these post were enough to convice me that leaving a college is tougher than anything else I have ever envisioned. The guys discussed for batch momento for 3 months, trying to include all opinions in final momento, endeavouring to make it best momento of the world, just to look at it 10 years later to draw a nostalgic feeling, to revive the reminisceces of the 4 years, feared by the fact they might forget a bit of them. I am really struck and nervous by all that. Is that feeling going to hit me after 8-9 months from now. No, I really dont want to feel like that, I cant say good bye to anything, let it be anything, thats the toughest moment I ever face. Later I browsed through their blogs and see what ,,, someone is wrinting of the first day he came to daiict, and to someone, the day he first performed on stage became the long lasting memory, or to someone it was the good time he had with his friends, and to someone the foodcourt in night was the thing never forgottable, the galls, gaming, bunking lectures, screwing grades, night outs, parties, functions and last but not the least prof., everything , everything of it was like piching somewhere to them, brewing a feeling that daiict was best part of their life. 4 years to them were like 4 pals or even shorter which just escapes in one wink. Probably these memories are the most beautiful gift daiict could ever give them. Someone has said this --- jab waqt gujar jata hai to aur bhi hasin ho jata hai ... That's very true. Best of luck to all my seniors in all their endeavours
Monday, April 30, 2007
SEN sucks
if anything ever has got power to sqeeze human's mind than it can not be better than "SEN" in this business because "sen" has the ability to suck ones mind like one suck appy with a straw. SEN = software engineering, a subject which is taught to computer and IT engineers. This is the subject which can be nightmare as the theory part of it is like pages of a rhetoric book, content of which is very small but has been made very long and heavy using rhetoric language and worst thing comes when one has to reproduce the same content in the exam and the practical lab work of it is producing 6-8 page lang documents in microsoft word like one is writing essay on a topic. This subject sucks, seriously sucks, in short the juice and motive of the whole subject is to teach planning things and managing things, which is good and no bad in itself but the way books have been written on all these and questions are asked in the exams are like ones which we used to answer in 9-10 standard. All theory, no maths, no logic, just remember and in the exams, write as much as you can. And above all the credits of this are held 5.5, highest in the whole sememster, so that a poor SPI can be assured if one is not "rattu tota " or book worm. A course which is nothing but apalling, there is nothing to understand except a few things has been made up so heavy and of so high importance, it really sucks. Just have a look at SEN book, full chapter has been written just to explain one line and books have been made like a thesis of 10kg. Cant we keep SEN books short like a comic book if it can address all topics, Cant an objective paper be given in the exam when subjective paper is unnecessary and of no use, but our propogaters of the subject just do not want it to happen, perhaps because it gives them fun to torture innocent students like us :( .
Thursday, April 26, 2007
puzzled
calm and peace was shattered when notes of pattern recognision were touched today after the 2nd mid semester exams after a long hiatus approzimately 1 month long. Though I do not advise anybody to do so, I am litterly defeated by my whims and hobbies that keep me from my books. I found that our instructer had really taught a lot of topics after the 2nd mid semester exams which were beyond my worst expectation. As it is default, I had bunked all the lectures after the 2nd mid semester and am totally blank as to what strategy should I adopt to steal a good grade in end semester exam. One relieving thing, for which I must thank GOD and my professor, is that the end semester exams are going to be open notes, but this doesnt really solve much of the problem as the professor loves asking hard questions ... can any1 teach me pattern recognition in 3 days as on the 4th day I have exam and this is the opening exam and I really dont wanna open my endsem exams with a bad one :( anyone help me please
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
the torrent
the torrent arises to shake, bounce and float every hitherto unexplored, unmoved brain tissue when I attempt to analyze the question of my future. Where do I want to be? What can I do best? What should I choose as my career? These handfuls of questions are capable of bringing me into a state of vagueness where no answer seems better than other yet every answer proves itself better than every other options. vagueness ... yes, thats what it is... a state of unclarity and its continuity is more disturbing than its occurance, because it has been so contiuous that it lasted everytime I tried to arise the "torrent". The first question that founds the base of the torrent is where I want to be. This seemingly easily answerable question can go upto an extent of confusion that puzzles badly. I really dont know. Where do I wanna be?? an engineer?.. yes .. i like this work .. engineering stuff.. i enjoy working in labs.... well a manager after mba?...... yes .. thats what I always wanted to be...... my imagination could never think that choosing one option out of given two can be so prolonged process... amazing .. hmm . The next question comes ,i.e. what can I do best??? I really dont know ... simply I dont know... may be as an engineer I can succeed.. may be I can do managerial things better than engineering... The thing is that I have no experience of doing any one of them in an industry. How can I judge ??? Do I know my weaknesses ??? probably NOT... probably what I believe as my weak points are really my weak points. The third and final question for which I employed my mind and energy definitely curtailing my fun-time(most precious), is this ... What should I choose as my career? To answer this I must go back to my first question which is still waiting for a finite answer ,ie., where do I want to be ???
This is really a deadlock, an example of a perfect deadlock, its like the chakarvahue, entrace into which is very trivial and only needs arising the questions but escaping from it is not as trivial as it seems to be. anyone Help me out to get out of this....
But is it really necessary to locate these answers. I particularly am trying to find them because my senior and teachers have advised me to do so, but the same advised was given to me when I was younger and had to choose optional subject after 10th standard. I really never gave thought to these question but did what I was asked to do, accepted life as it came and I reached to this stage. and I think I am really happy, inspite of the fact that my subject are not the once which I wanted to study. So I think, though the seniors ask us to find the answers to these questions and set the goals accordingly, one may not worry about them much if these questions seems unanswerable even after many tries and one can go on doing whatever he/she is doing. Time will factor everything. Let the time decide and tell what is best to do. So, I think I should actually prepare for my exams like cat,gre etc.. and stop worrying whether I want to be an engineer or a manager because results of these exams is capable of explicitly answering this question -- what can I do best and discriminating between the two options. The first question was -- where do I want to be ? well, if there existed one wish than I would have certainly capable of answering this question but unfortunately there remains more than one wishes. In any case I have to choose one of my wish over another. So now it really does not matter whether I become and engineer or a manager because in any case one wish will be gardened and another will just remain a wish. So lets move on the third question -- What should I choose as my career? I think once the results declare the answer to the second question, I will pretty easily answer this question because it is simply a function of 1st and 2nd. So now I think, I should sit back and let the results of exams be the judge of my future rather than worrying about it. Seriously, judging own self is the most difficult task one can ever encounter but did I make the torrent silent, silent forever.... yes! silent like the stillness of water, I dont want to think, it is still brutal, vulnerable to repetition.
This is really a deadlock, an example of a perfect deadlock, its like the chakarvahue, entrace into which is very trivial and only needs arising the questions but escaping from it is not as trivial as it seems to be. anyone Help me out to get out of this....
But is it really necessary to locate these answers. I particularly am trying to find them because my senior and teachers have advised me to do so, but the same advised was given to me when I was younger and had to choose optional subject after 10th standard. I really never gave thought to these question but did what I was asked to do, accepted life as it came and I reached to this stage. and I think I am really happy, inspite of the fact that my subject are not the once which I wanted to study. So I think, though the seniors ask us to find the answers to these questions and set the goals accordingly, one may not worry about them much if these questions seems unanswerable even after many tries and one can go on doing whatever he/she is doing. Time will factor everything. Let the time decide and tell what is best to do. So, I think I should actually prepare for my exams like cat,gre etc.. and stop worrying whether I want to be an engineer or a manager because results of these exams is capable of explicitly answering this question -- what can I do best and discriminating between the two options. The first question was -- where do I want to be ? well, if there existed one wish than I would have certainly capable of answering this question but unfortunately there remains more than one wishes. In any case I have to choose one of my wish over another. So now it really does not matter whether I become and engineer or a manager because in any case one wish will be gardened and another will just remain a wish. So lets move on the third question -- What should I choose as my career? I think once the results declare the answer to the second question, I will pretty easily answer this question because it is simply a function of 1st and 2nd. So now I think, I should sit back and let the results of exams be the judge of my future rather than worrying about it. Seriously, judging own self is the most difficult task one can ever encounter but did I make the torrent silent, silent forever.... yes! silent like the stillness of water, I dont want to think, it is still brutal, vulnerable to repetition.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
random talk
My life has been very strange to myself. I dont have any complaint with my life as it has always brought to me what I deserved at times (that may be different from what I wanted). It has given me many gifts but all the time they were different from what I wanted and altogether turned out to be best for me. Even sometimes worst things happened in my life like breaking of friendships but later I came to know that those "so considered worst things" were also my good luck!!! Amazing but yes, they simplified lot more complications and worries in my life. This always made me believe this - "Everthing happens for betterment only." and perhaps this is the same belief that causes me to behave in my own way. I speak what is there in my heart, I do what I believe is right and I believe what I think is logical and I dont really care for anything but my duties and responsibility because I believe that everything happens for betterment only.
One thing in always recurred in my life and that is – “magic of hardwork”. For example in school days, there were times when I didnt do hardwork but had better knowledge of some subject than others, yet I stood below than others... And there were times when I did hardwork but others had better command over subjects, yet life gave me surprized gift and kept me in top ranks. It is all the hardwork that has paid me till now irrespective of everything else. If I worked hard, than I know for sure that I will get things. If I didnt than I should not expect a favour from my luck. In fact, being in accord to my believes and philosophy( which is -- One does not have any right to get things for free and one must get things for what one has paid for.), I appreciate this things.
Well these days life is bringing new challenges and fun to me. Like, there are some projects to be done, in a sense , they are to be done and not in the way I have done projects so far, ie., copy and paste style. They are some real projects and working on them serves as fun and fascination for things. My new aim, which is landing abroad, is becoming realistic day by day. And this is what is keeping my energy alive. Help from some seniors, who are undoubtedly my source of inspirations, has eased many complexities of life. One thing that still remains uncompleted is English, yes, moving from normal English user to an advance English speaker. That is what has been remained uncompleted. Well, one day I will wake up to realize completion of this goal and another day, I know, the lachrymose success will touch my feet.
One thing in always recurred in my life and that is – “magic of hardwork”. For example in school days, there were times when I didnt do hardwork but had better knowledge of some subject than others, yet I stood below than others... And there were times when I did hardwork but others had better command over subjects, yet life gave me surprized gift and kept me in top ranks. It is all the hardwork that has paid me till now irrespective of everything else. If I worked hard, than I know for sure that I will get things. If I didnt than I should not expect a favour from my luck. In fact, being in accord to my believes and philosophy( which is -- One does not have any right to get things for free and one must get things for what one has paid for.), I appreciate this things.
Well these days life is bringing new challenges and fun to me. Like, there are some projects to be done, in a sense , they are to be done and not in the way I have done projects so far, ie., copy and paste style. They are some real projects and working on them serves as fun and fascination for things. My new aim, which is landing abroad, is becoming realistic day by day. And this is what is keeping my energy alive. Help from some seniors, who are undoubtedly my source of inspirations, has eased many complexities of life. One thing that still remains uncompleted is English, yes, moving from normal English user to an advance English speaker. That is what has been remained uncompleted. Well, one day I will wake up to realize completion of this goal and another day, I know, the lachrymose success will touch my feet.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
this sem
ya i know i am writing today after a long hiatus, but it was only because of my work that employed all my time and i was left with no moments get back to this blog. Well, i will try to be regular from now on and i can promise this as the nightmares of 2nd mid semester exams are over now and the ghost of SEN project will soon return. I am pretty sure that there departure from my life will turn out to be a blessing for me as i would be able to return to my previous diurnal schedule, when i used to wake up at 9,10,11(nothing was fixed in fact) and go back to sleep around 5 am in the morning.
Factually speaking, this semester has been tiresome till now and learning english to bell the cat has been palling since the very first day. In the begining, in January, I had some very good experience with learning algorithms. The semester had just begun, so there was no considerable onus from course projects, lectures, labs and tutorials. I was very relaxed and in this relaxation days passed and one day I realized that February had come. Then the realization that a lot had been covered in the class while i was relax in my room made my eyes open to study because not waking up now would mean running the 1st mid semester exams which were far by only 1 week. I got back to studies. I had not recovered from the shock of "security protocols", when I realized that the storm of SEN and MCS was ready to bring havoc to my mental peace. I had not attended the lectures of MCS and whatever was tought by our renowned professor in the class was too much to be grasped in a day. Well, the life does not stop, and the days passed and here i was with all my cheerful face in the dawn of the very next day after the exam looking at the rising sun and thinking why is it that life is not always the same like it was that time. The ghost of exams had been passed by and I had buried all the memories connected to it, thought of them were preempted from my mind to be acquired by my next passion, the thing i love to do in my spare time,.. coding and algorithms.... I am lucky to have my interest as my subjects :)
Factually speaking, this semester has been tiresome till now and learning english to bell the cat has been palling since the very first day. In the begining, in January, I had some very good experience with learning algorithms. The semester had just begun, so there was no considerable onus from course projects, lectures, labs and tutorials. I was very relaxed and in this relaxation days passed and one day I realized that February had come. Then the realization that a lot had been covered in the class while i was relax in my room made my eyes open to study because not waking up now would mean running the 1st mid semester exams which were far by only 1 week. I got back to studies. I had not recovered from the shock of "security protocols", when I realized that the storm of SEN and MCS was ready to bring havoc to my mental peace. I had not attended the lectures of MCS and whatever was tought by our renowned professor in the class was too much to be grasped in a day. Well, the life does not stop, and the days passed and here i was with all my cheerful face in the dawn of the very next day after the exam looking at the rising sun and thinking why is it that life is not always the same like it was that time. The ghost of exams had been passed by and I had buried all the memories connected to it, thought of them were preempted from my mind to be acquired by my next passion, the thing i love to do in my spare time,.. coding and algorithms.... I am lucky to have my interest as my subjects :)
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
how beautiful but still complex is the nature
The implicit beauty of the nature - something which i really appreciate...
The depth of the ocean, waves in the river, the height of the clouds, the boundaries of the universe, the existence of the earth, the vallies between skyscrapping mountains and the streams among them, water-drops on the green tree leaves in the morning, the flow of the breeze, the rain in the summer, the cold in the winter, all these things truly fascinates me, leanding me to wander and praise the beauty, the complexity involved in it. How big is our universe without limits, what exist beyond that, in the whole universe where does the earth comes in the picture, where do we come in the picture, what is it the smallest thing in the universe, the smallest in the whole universe, or does there exist anything that could be considered as smallest, or is there something beyond the universe, something bigger than it??? The beauty of the nature is amazingly amazing. and if all this is part of the nature than i would say that nothings exist worth comparing to the nature. Its unpredictable, unimaginable, unreproducible. Unique , truly unique!
I often wander among all these question, thinking about them when i am in the realm of nature, far from artificial world where manmade machines are dominant, far from my friends and my family, when i find myself free from all worldly tasks i go to some lonely place where i can watch the beautiful original world to realize that i am not limited by my body, this body which will be burned after my departure it, but i am a part of this nature, an entity which is not unique and is exactly the same as others. When i am confinded in this body i am limited and unique, nobody can be compared to me, i can not be compared to anybody, and the moment i remind myself that the body is an illusion but i am not, i feel that i am as imporatant in the universe as the tree before me, as the bird heading high in the sky, as the insect sitting nearby, as the everybody else, as the dog coming and going, as the ducks who are playing. The same entity residing in everyone, the same !
It is only us who started differentiating between man and the animal, the god only wrapped us up with different covering, and sent on this earth. HE defined no language, n0 race, no communities, no differentiation. It is only like same gift packed in different coating. But we, defined our language, we defined communities, and differentiated ourselves with others. We never tried to talk with an animal, never tried to understand the true nature of us, us the . Did we? We always restricted ourselves to what was taught us in our childhood, and that became the truth for us. And the same is applicable for other races and animals also. no race tries to talk with others, and even they escape from it. I appreciate this complexity, that everybody is unique, at the same time everyone is exactly the same as the other but still there are boundaries. and the question again pops up --- how all this happened in the first place and the only answer i have is -- "The beauty of the nature is amazingly amazing. unpredictable, unimaginable, unreproducible. Unique , truly unique!"
The depth of the ocean, waves in the river, the height of the clouds, the boundaries of the universe, the existence of the earth, the vallies between skyscrapping mountains and the streams among them, water-drops on the green tree leaves in the morning, the flow of the breeze, the rain in the summer, the cold in the winter, all these things truly fascinates me, leanding me to wander and praise the beauty, the complexity involved in it. How big is our universe without limits, what exist beyond that, in the whole universe where does the earth comes in the picture, where do we come in the picture, what is it the smallest thing in the universe, the smallest in the whole universe, or does there exist anything that could be considered as smallest, or is there something beyond the universe, something bigger than it??? The beauty of the nature is amazingly amazing. and if all this is part of the nature than i would say that nothings exist worth comparing to the nature. Its unpredictable, unimaginable, unreproducible. Unique , truly unique!
I often wander among all these question, thinking about them when i am in the realm of nature, far from artificial world where manmade machines are dominant, far from my friends and my family, when i find myself free from all worldly tasks i go to some lonely place where i can watch the beautiful original world to realize that i am not limited by my body, this body which will be burned after my departure it, but i am a part of this nature, an entity which is not unique and is exactly the same as others. When i am confinded in this body i am limited and unique, nobody can be compared to me, i can not be compared to anybody, and the moment i remind myself that the body is an illusion but i am not, i feel that i am as imporatant in the universe as the tree before me, as the bird heading high in the sky, as the insect sitting nearby, as the everybody else, as the dog coming and going, as the ducks who are playing. The same entity residing in everyone, the same !
It is only us who started differentiating between man and the animal, the god only wrapped us up with different covering, and sent on this earth. HE defined no language, n0 race, no communities, no differentiation. It is only like same gift packed in different coating. But we, defined our language, we defined communities, and differentiated ourselves with others. We never tried to talk with an animal, never tried to understand the true nature of us, us the . Did we? We always restricted ourselves to what was taught us in our childhood, and that became the truth for us. And the same is applicable for other races and animals also. no race tries to talk with others, and even they escape from it. I appreciate this complexity, that everybody is unique, at the same time everyone is exactly the same as the other but still there are boundaries. and the question again pops up --- how all this happened in the first place and the only answer i have is -- "The beauty of the nature is amazingly amazing. unpredictable, unimaginable, unreproducible. Unique , truly unique!"
Saturday, January 20, 2007
the hidden treasure
this post is merely a reflection of my thoughts right now. I could never imagined that the research could ever be so thrilling and fascinating. Truely, it is great , playing with statistics , it has all the trill that could ever be involved in something. I love it.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
the hourable judiciary-- how honoured it is
Cant go on with holes in the judiciary---
We must mend them ---
For any democracy to live healthier, the primary need is the practical avilability of human rights to every citizen. And thats what democracy means.To ensure the exercise of rights without fear and dread, every democracy has legal judiciary. Judiciary is responsible to solve conflicts and to preserve justice. To implement judiciary, we have courts and police system. Police is responsible to maintain peace in the region and to act as a nexus between people and justice. So in a way, to defend for any overtaking of rights every citizen must go to police and then the police scrutinize the case, collect details and forward them to court. The court listen to the both sides of the case, the procequetor and the defender and also to police and pronouce the difference between right or wrong. This way every little part of the juridiciary plays substantial and significant role in bringing the justice to the affected people. That makes it very crucial the way every intermediate department functions.
Does that lead to the necessity of probing and supervising every department affecting the availablity of human rights? In a way it does until we dont find the answer to what happens if anything intermediatary thing starts abusing the authority given to it. But even if we establish the central authority to maintain a watchful eye on the component of juridiciary, who will verify the deads of that central authrity ??? We dont have any such authority in India or anyware and torturing prisoners, abasing them and abject situation of most of the prisoner are nothing but a dire consequences of that. We can no more rely upon police and trust them. As the cases of torture to detainees are coming up at an rapidly bursting rate. Many of these people who are taken in custody before the court pronounce its decision, are later vindicate. For them it becomes wholly unfair to be humiliated in the custody. To some of them, the govenment pays the price of humiliation but how can that suffice for them who become mentally challenged as a result of humiliation in the custody, a gift bestowed by the legal system to maintain justice. Is this justice?
When the course of case goes on for years and the file is closed with the death of either the defender or the prosequetor, how does our present legal system brings justice to them.
Beating prisoners, making them to do dirty work, making them nude, threatening them, not providing proper medical care on time, not giving them sufficient food all have emerged as very common shocks in police custody. Every detainee reports these and more over they are threated to face dire consequences if thet are found to speak this to anyone especially in media. Currently Afzal, who has been sentenced to death after proved to be guilty in case of parliament attack, reported in the court of genital shocks. Also when he was made to confess his crime before media, and he stated the innocence of DU professor Gilani, he was asked to shut up by the police and reporters were forbaded from reporting this incident.
There is no end to the monopoly of police and its association with bribe. Most of the case-trials are made abeyant without any proper reason and as a consequence of police involvement with the corruption. Many case files are virtually closed forever and many are convicted by police, beated in prison, forcefully make the detainee confess that he/she is guilty, they collect false proofs and finally our honourable court absolved the real guilty and announce sentence of innocent people. And that is not very uncommon today, especially in context of India.
Irrespective might be our response for the need of central system to monitor police but the need of auditing the whole system is evident. Somehow the democracy needs to implement it, we just can not allow the monopoly of police. We cant just go on with the police bedraggled in corruption. We need to preserve the rights of detainees also, detainees who are innocent, who live mentally challenged life after the police confinement for simple inquirary purposes, we cant just allow the way those enquiries are held, because that does not resonance with the central theme of democracy, with the availability of human rights for which the whole system is maintained.
We must mend them ---
For any democracy to live healthier, the primary need is the practical avilability of human rights to every citizen. And thats what democracy means.To ensure the exercise of rights without fear and dread, every democracy has legal judiciary. Judiciary is responsible to solve conflicts and to preserve justice. To implement judiciary, we have courts and police system. Police is responsible to maintain peace in the region and to act as a nexus between people and justice. So in a way, to defend for any overtaking of rights every citizen must go to police and then the police scrutinize the case, collect details and forward them to court. The court listen to the both sides of the case, the procequetor and the defender and also to police and pronouce the difference between right or wrong. This way every little part of the juridiciary plays substantial and significant role in bringing the justice to the affected people. That makes it very crucial the way every intermediate department functions.
Does that lead to the necessity of probing and supervising every department affecting the availablity of human rights? In a way it does until we dont find the answer to what happens if anything intermediatary thing starts abusing the authority given to it. But even if we establish the central authority to maintain a watchful eye on the component of juridiciary, who will verify the deads of that central authrity ??? We dont have any such authority in India or anyware and torturing prisoners, abasing them and abject situation of most of the prisoner are nothing but a dire consequences of that. We can no more rely upon police and trust them. As the cases of torture to detainees are coming up at an rapidly bursting rate. Many of these people who are taken in custody before the court pronounce its decision, are later vindicate. For them it becomes wholly unfair to be humiliated in the custody. To some of them, the govenment pays the price of humiliation but how can that suffice for them who become mentally challenged as a result of humiliation in the custody, a gift bestowed by the legal system to maintain justice. Is this justice?
When the course of case goes on for years and the file is closed with the death of either the defender or the prosequetor, how does our present legal system brings justice to them.
Beating prisoners, making them to do dirty work, making them nude, threatening them, not providing proper medical care on time, not giving them sufficient food all have emerged as very common shocks in police custody. Every detainee reports these and more over they are threated to face dire consequences if thet are found to speak this to anyone especially in media. Currently Afzal, who has been sentenced to death after proved to be guilty in case of parliament attack, reported in the court of genital shocks. Also when he was made to confess his crime before media, and he stated the innocence of DU professor Gilani, he was asked to shut up by the police and reporters were forbaded from reporting this incident.
There is no end to the monopoly of police and its association with bribe. Most of the case-trials are made abeyant without any proper reason and as a consequence of police involvement with the corruption. Many case files are virtually closed forever and many are convicted by police, beated in prison, forcefully make the detainee confess that he/she is guilty, they collect false proofs and finally our honourable court absolved the real guilty and announce sentence of innocent people. And that is not very uncommon today, especially in context of India.
Irrespective might be our response for the need of central system to monitor police but the need of auditing the whole system is evident. Somehow the democracy needs to implement it, we just can not allow the monopoly of police. We cant just go on with the police bedraggled in corruption. We need to preserve the rights of detainees also, detainees who are innocent, who live mentally challenged life after the police confinement for simple inquirary purposes, we cant just allow the way those enquiries are held, because that does not resonance with the central theme of democracy, with the availability of human rights for which the whole system is maintained.
khosla ka ghosla
Khosla Ka Ghosla--
After long time any director has picturised normal middle class family life. This movie has turned out to be very good. It shows story of how middle class families are befooled and looted by the property dealers engaged with builders, who produce duplicate documents to meet the requirement of the buyers and beguile them.
Mr. Khosla(Anupam Kher) is an aged man and retried after a year. He has two sons and one girl. All three are young and the younger son is software engineer who dreams to fly to newyork. Mr. Khosla purchases plot via broker Gajendra, who is a friend of Khurana. Khurana is a big bull and fools people in property dealing with the help of Gajendra and this time the victim turn out to be Khosla. Unlawful acquisition on his land means that his whole life savings are at stake. Then how he acquire his land back and build his dream house on it is a chain of interesting events. The mix of light comedy successfully keeps the viewer cheerful all the time. Tara Sharma is opposite to chery and has done justice to her role. She looks gorgeious and beautyful and full appreal have doubled her beauty. All have acted well. Dialogue delivery and good use of facial expression makes scenes like real. The movie is worth watching and can be seen at home as it contains no vulgar scenes and everybody covers the body appropriately with full dresses.
Sometimes the movie becomes unpractical but thats the problem with every bollywood movie that they never show case something practical. The ending could be extended a little more with the journey of chery to NewYork and that would have accrued the happy ending to little more happier.Anyway, in short the movie turn out to be worth watching. Have fun with this movie.
After long time any director has picturised normal middle class family life. This movie has turned out to be very good. It shows story of how middle class families are befooled and looted by the property dealers engaged with builders, who produce duplicate documents to meet the requirement of the buyers and beguile them.
Mr. Khosla(Anupam Kher) is an aged man and retried after a year. He has two sons and one girl. All three are young and the younger son is software engineer who dreams to fly to newyork. Mr. Khosla purchases plot via broker Gajendra, who is a friend of Khurana. Khurana is a big bull and fools people in property dealing with the help of Gajendra and this time the victim turn out to be Khosla. Unlawful acquisition on his land means that his whole life savings are at stake. Then how he acquire his land back and build his dream house on it is a chain of interesting events. The mix of light comedy successfully keeps the viewer cheerful all the time. Tara Sharma is opposite to chery and has done justice to her role. She looks gorgeious and beautyful and full appreal have doubled her beauty. All have acted well. Dialogue delivery and good use of facial expression makes scenes like real. The movie is worth watching and can be seen at home as it contains no vulgar scenes and everybody covers the body appropriately with full dresses.
Sometimes the movie becomes unpractical but thats the problem with every bollywood movie that they never show case something practical. The ending could be extended a little more with the journey of chery to NewYork and that would have accrued the happy ending to little more happier.Anyway, in short the movie turn out to be worth watching. Have fun with this movie.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
historians or storytellers
"When we concern ourselves with the study of history, we become storytellers. Because we can never know the past directly but must construct it by interpreting evidence, exploring history is more of a creative enterprise than it is an objective pursuit. All historians are storytellers."
According to the issue the historians do not really dig history but rather construt stories. Believers of this phenomenon may support the issue, but I, personally, do not feel that the issue leads in correct direction and hence this reader dismisses and rejects the claims made in the issue. I would like to assert that all historians are not storytellers yet some of them may be storytellers but they are those, who dont possess adequate knowledge or apply their knowledge in a synchronized way. Again being some of them storytellers does not imply that all are story-tellers.
I dont think that the statement provide sufficient information about the scenario. Events happened centuaries before the existence of present age are also a part of history and events happened in the near past are also a part of history. But the way we derive conclusions in both the scenario are very different from each other. Stories about events happened years before the existence of human being are not being told by the ancestors and hence do not propogate as inheritence rather they are based on scientific clues and observations. For example, When we study history of a particular area, lets say we examine the prints of a mammel on the rock, we look for some clues and then we try to connect clues with each-other to arrive at some conclusion about what could have occured in the past based on the clues at hand. Then we logically try to establish its connection with some other events which are considered to have happened in the area. We examine the clue critically, we examine other possibilities, we also think critically the controversies,if born, because of mismatch of the scenario being analyzed and other past events and finally arrive at one solution which can give least controversial solution. In the whole process, we derive the time of events by scientific methods which have more than satisfactory probablity of being correct. we derive conclusions logically and where we find controversy and if we do not find one particular answer, we leave that as unsolved or unknown. In the whole process of arriving at the facts, everything is done logically and should be correct.
Again when we refer to history of near past, like of before 2-3 centuaries, we use a totally different way to driving us to facts. We learn facts in books, we see some signs of historical importance and in a sense we inherit stories of past by our ancestors. Then we try to connect them logically and critically with the stories being propogated through generations. As in this scenario, we are considering only the history of near past, we can assume such propogated stories to be true to a certain extent.
The problem arises when we refer to the history of the such a time, where we can not find adequate signs or left prints to derive things logically and also we cant believe on the truthness of the propogated stories. In that scenario, we can say that talking of history is less like talking of facts and more like talking of possibilities.
Whether a historical so-called fact is possibility or fact, very much depends on the time of the scenario, historical signs,symbols and prints present there, the adequecy of those symbols, events happened later, how can those event can add flaw to the symbols, facts, evidence in hand. But still, historians do not construct stories if they find it impossible to arrive at a fact, they leave it as possibility and unknown matter. Historians are those who derive facts and uncovers unseen, unimagined events before us to a extent they possiblly can, after which they talk about possibility but do not tell story. They try to derive things as much as they can but nothing in the world can be pressumed to be perfect. Hence even if little flaws may exist in the claims of historians but they can not be considered story-tellers. Hence calling historians like a storytellers can not be accepted as correct.
According to the issue the historians do not really dig history but rather construt stories. Believers of this phenomenon may support the issue, but I, personally, do not feel that the issue leads in correct direction and hence this reader dismisses and rejects the claims made in the issue. I would like to assert that all historians are not storytellers yet some of them may be storytellers but they are those, who dont possess adequate knowledge or apply their knowledge in a synchronized way. Again being some of them storytellers does not imply that all are story-tellers.
I dont think that the statement provide sufficient information about the scenario. Events happened centuaries before the existence of present age are also a part of history and events happened in the near past are also a part of history. But the way we derive conclusions in both the scenario are very different from each other. Stories about events happened years before the existence of human being are not being told by the ancestors and hence do not propogate as inheritence rather they are based on scientific clues and observations. For example, When we study history of a particular area, lets say we examine the prints of a mammel on the rock, we look for some clues and then we try to connect clues with each-other to arrive at some conclusion about what could have occured in the past based on the clues at hand. Then we logically try to establish its connection with some other events which are considered to have happened in the area. We examine the clue critically, we examine other possibilities, we also think critically the controversies,if born, because of mismatch of the scenario being analyzed and other past events and finally arrive at one solution which can give least controversial solution. In the whole process, we derive the time of events by scientific methods which have more than satisfactory probablity of being correct. we derive conclusions logically and where we find controversy and if we do not find one particular answer, we leave that as unsolved or unknown. In the whole process of arriving at the facts, everything is done logically and should be correct.
Again when we refer to history of near past, like of before 2-3 centuaries, we use a totally different way to driving us to facts. We learn facts in books, we see some signs of historical importance and in a sense we inherit stories of past by our ancestors. Then we try to connect them logically and critically with the stories being propogated through generations. As in this scenario, we are considering only the history of near past, we can assume such propogated stories to be true to a certain extent.
The problem arises when we refer to the history of the such a time, where we can not find adequate signs or left prints to derive things logically and also we cant believe on the truthness of the propogated stories. In that scenario, we can say that talking of history is less like talking of facts and more like talking of possibilities.
Whether a historical so-called fact is possibility or fact, very much depends on the time of the scenario, historical signs,symbols and prints present there, the adequecy of those symbols, events happened later, how can those event can add flaw to the symbols, facts, evidence in hand. But still, historians do not construct stories if they find it impossible to arrive at a fact, they leave it as possibility and unknown matter. Historians are those who derive facts and uncovers unseen, unimagined events before us to a extent they possiblly can, after which they talk about possibility but do not tell story. They try to derive things as much as they can but nothing in the world can be pressumed to be perfect. Hence even if little flaws may exist in the claims of historians but they can not be considered story-tellers. Hence calling historians like a storytellers can not be accepted as correct.
Monday, September 25, 2006
U.S. reaction on the coup in thailand
U.S. reaction on the coup in thailand
Thailand, situated in the south east asia, has always fascinated me. This country has always been a desired location of tourists. The whole stability of its economy is founded on tourism, yet such a fascinating and full of thrill country has seen 18 coups since the establishment of democracy takes me aback. It just surprizes me how unstable different governments have proved to be. There has been no prime minister elected twice for PM seat in the history of thailand except the recently ousted prime minister Thanksin. It leaves with the impression that probably Thanksin has accomplished its duties well and has worked for the people. Also Thanksin had made himself very popular in the country side. His policies were inclined in favour of poor and uneducated crowd of Thailand. He was selected twice and the 2nd win was a clear landslide. It seems really surprizing that at one side you have a landslide victory and at another you are overthrown by the coup and almost 80% of the public supports the coup! It was only the last year when Thaksin was elected again. The victory says most of the public supports you and the polls after coup says most of them opposes you !
What were these critical decisions Thaksin had moved ahead with, which caused him to be ousted ?? One of the biggest mistake Thaksin committed was to sell telecommunication industry in private hands. He was keen of handing over government assets in private hands and this probably caused the rise dissatisfaction and anger against him. He was charged many a times with involvement in corruptive activity. Although each time he was absolved by the court, yet the fumes against him were fogging and it was further agitated by the tax free sales of $2 billion of his company. People began to believe that he was corrupt. Moreover, He failed to control the insurgents in southern Thailand. The army forces were ordered to bring the situation under control but without any governing proper plan. The lives of Thai soldiers were not being considered. When the monarch put his views before the government warning it of possible danger, he did not even cared to give heed to the monarch. Monarch is consided revered among Thai people but this negligency to the views of the monarch led to nothing but undermined his goodwill. His attitude of authoritarianism and harsh-rough behaviour with subordinates made him disliked among his juniors and finally his office was captured by the millitary in the coup.
The coup was bloodless, there are no news of violence except few cases of protest. EVen when the coup leader General Sondhi has declared Martial law, in which public gatherings have been ordered to be prohibited and liable of proper action against it. Meetings of political parties have been declared illegal and the media has been barred from printing any news against the existing rulers which can promote violence and result into activities against junta. Even in such situation polls shows that approximately 80% of the thai public is in favour of coup and hope that the coup will be dawn of the flawless and c+orruption less democracy again in the Thailand. In such a condition when a majority of the people of the country are happy with the existing rulers, why does other nations assert it to be against peace. Why U.S. affirms that the coup is not going to produce any fruitful results.
Coup leaders in Thailand have shown no interest in power and seat and at the same time, have already promised to return power to publicly elected person within 2 weeks and vowed to revise its constitution within a year, that clearly shows that the country is going through reforms which are unlikely to be harmful. In such a situation , forceful imposition of ideas by one democracy on another government does not resemble with the ideology of peace. If U.S. really wants to value it on the scale of peace, then it should let the existing Thailand government work, the way it wants to. It should, at various steps , make sure that the majority of public is with the government policy, it could varify at various steps whether the government is keeping its promises to certain degree of satisfaction or not and finally it should varify whether the new constitution is in recocilation with the ideology of peace, prosperity and democracy or not. It is the time when Thai people are mending loopholes in their democracy, and they definitely have every right to do it. Why should any government prejudge and announce it to be non-democratic??????
Thailand, situated in the south east asia, has always fascinated me. This country has always been a desired location of tourists. The whole stability of its economy is founded on tourism, yet such a fascinating and full of thrill country has seen 18 coups since the establishment of democracy takes me aback. It just surprizes me how unstable different governments have proved to be. There has been no prime minister elected twice for PM seat in the history of thailand except the recently ousted prime minister Thanksin. It leaves with the impression that probably Thanksin has accomplished its duties well and has worked for the people. Also Thanksin had made himself very popular in the country side. His policies were inclined in favour of poor and uneducated crowd of Thailand. He was selected twice and the 2nd win was a clear landslide. It seems really surprizing that at one side you have a landslide victory and at another you are overthrown by the coup and almost 80% of the public supports the coup! It was only the last year when Thaksin was elected again. The victory says most of the public supports you and the polls after coup says most of them opposes you !
What were these critical decisions Thaksin had moved ahead with, which caused him to be ousted ?? One of the biggest mistake Thaksin committed was to sell telecommunication industry in private hands. He was keen of handing over government assets in private hands and this probably caused the rise dissatisfaction and anger against him. He was charged many a times with involvement in corruptive activity. Although each time he was absolved by the court, yet the fumes against him were fogging and it was further agitated by the tax free sales of $2 billion of his company. People began to believe that he was corrupt. Moreover, He failed to control the insurgents in southern Thailand. The army forces were ordered to bring the situation under control but without any governing proper plan. The lives of Thai soldiers were not being considered. When the monarch put his views before the government warning it of possible danger, he did not even cared to give heed to the monarch. Monarch is consided revered among Thai people but this negligency to the views of the monarch led to nothing but undermined his goodwill. His attitude of authoritarianism and harsh-rough behaviour with subordinates made him disliked among his juniors and finally his office was captured by the millitary in the coup.
The coup was bloodless, there are no news of violence except few cases of protest. EVen when the coup leader General Sondhi has declared Martial law, in which public gatherings have been ordered to be prohibited and liable of proper action against it. Meetings of political parties have been declared illegal and the media has been barred from printing any news against the existing rulers which can promote violence and result into activities against junta. Even in such situation polls shows that approximately 80% of the thai public is in favour of coup and hope that the coup will be dawn of the flawless and c+orruption less democracy again in the Thailand. In such a condition when a majority of the people of the country are happy with the existing rulers, why does other nations assert it to be against peace. Why U.S. affirms that the coup is not going to produce any fruitful results.
Coup leaders in Thailand have shown no interest in power and seat and at the same time, have already promised to return power to publicly elected person within 2 weeks and vowed to revise its constitution within a year, that clearly shows that the country is going through reforms which are unlikely to be harmful. In such a situation , forceful imposition of ideas by one democracy on another government does not resemble with the ideology of peace. If U.S. really wants to value it on the scale of peace, then it should let the existing Thailand government work, the way it wants to. It should, at various steps , make sure that the majority of public is with the government policy, it could varify at various steps whether the government is keeping its promises to certain degree of satisfaction or not and finally it should varify whether the new constitution is in recocilation with the ideology of peace, prosperity and democracy or not. It is the time when Thai people are mending loopholes in their democracy, and they definitely have every right to do it. Why should any government prejudge and announce it to be non-democratic??????
Saturday, September 23, 2006
PAkistan - a complete politician
PAkistan - a complete politician
The world is full of surprizes. The historians have named seven most surprize of the world, as i think pakistan also leaves no loophole to be accoladed as the eighth surprize or the 1st amazing art piece of the 21st centuary crafted by the team of its political leaders header by General Musharraf. It is beyond any objections that if we leave the last couple of years, then pakistan has always been a poor economy. Illliteration , poverty and superstitious belief have been there for an era. Yet, pakistan plays a key role in world politics. Is it so because of its geographical location and others factors or it is a result of sharp and intellectual decision taken at various stages by its leaders.
The economic developments happened in Pakistan in last 60 years do not produce a worth-appreciating development rate. Poverty still is a grassroot problem with rural Pak. Common people of urban pak do not possess modern luxouries in general. Although in recent years Pak has moved on progress and some people are really rich but the number of these people , as polls indicate , constitutes a very small percentage of its population. 50% of pakistan's population is illitrate and belief and fear from celestial powers is still very common and unarguable in most of the rural Pak and also in urban Pakistan.A large part of its population still lacks basic resources for a healthy life. Other than these basic rooted problems, Pakistan also suffers from bomb-blasts, and violence among communities. I must make it a point that it has also lost 3 wars with its close neighbour India and has continously been blamed of bringing up and spreading terrorism. It has been said to run and support terrorist camps and many of its known leaders have been verified to be engaged in backing such activities. In spite of the darkness of all these problems and inculpations, Pakistan has still managed to create its own identity on world's map. It plays its own moves in the international politics and its moves are not overcome by any nation. There have been a lot of events which could tarnish its image, which could left it as a rag tag country, one of these is the 3 consequetive defeats from its neighbour, which is undoubtedly larger, economically stronger than it, which was more stronger than it at the time of war, had more soldiers, had more weapons and was financially stronger to cope the war. These 3 defeats could wipe out pakistan from the world map but yet, all three times it was pakistan to first declare the war and attack. I must say that R&D in pakistan is not as good as compared to India, yet the nuclear test, It successfully did Right the day after The India tested its nuclear bomb. No matter how but it was successful in obtaining the nuclear bomb,! The overthrowing of the democratic government, followed by the seige of power by millitary, it was definitely a move which caused violence and millitary had to make tough decisions, yet, after all this pakistan successfully accustommed to the ruling junta. Recently, pakistan is being repeatedly accused by Afghanistan's president Hamid Karzai of not controlling terrorism in the northern border area. It has been repeatedly blamed by India for the same. Even Bin Laden is supposed to be hidden in the remote areas of pakistan. Recently its treaty with north western taliban leaders is also undersupect. Yet, it supports U.S. in pursuit to find bin laden and supports U.S. millitary in their search campaigns. I cant really understand how smoothly it promotes terrorism and at the same time how smoothly it walks with US in war against terror.The way it has maintained its relationship with U.S. is simply great and unprecedented. At one look it is teared from inside, an exorbitant large portion of its budget goes to defense rather than development work, and at another sight, it has its own space in world. Recently, General Musharaff said that the U.S. had threatened to bomb it back to Stone Age had it not supported U.S. in its war on terror. The boldness of the statement is clear evidence that pakistan makes its own moves and not feared by any country. Its stand after 3 defeats, its stand after nuclear tests, its stand after the overtaking of power by military over democratic government, its stand after 9/11, its stand after attack on taliban, its stand on Iraq issue, at the same time its relationship with china, its relationship with U.S. and britain and its relationship with terrorist groups like al queda and LeT, all are in contrast with one another, allpoint challenges each other, but yet pak successfully maintains all delicately. In my views the politicians of pakistan have played a pivot role in last couple of years , being a backbone of its existence and image in the world, without which pakistan would have been just another country searching for its existence. This is a baroque architecture of politics placed by the politicians of pakistan which undemandingly deserves a salute and General Parveg Musharaff has simply been one of those great politicians who are sured to be remembered forever as a great ruler who has sieged power from democratic government and has also been choosen democratically !!!
The world is full of surprizes. The historians have named seven most surprize of the world, as i think pakistan also leaves no loophole to be accoladed as the eighth surprize or the 1st amazing art piece of the 21st centuary crafted by the team of its political leaders header by General Musharraf. It is beyond any objections that if we leave the last couple of years, then pakistan has always been a poor economy. Illliteration , poverty and superstitious belief have been there for an era. Yet, pakistan plays a key role in world politics. Is it so because of its geographical location and others factors or it is a result of sharp and intellectual decision taken at various stages by its leaders.
The economic developments happened in Pakistan in last 60 years do not produce a worth-appreciating development rate. Poverty still is a grassroot problem with rural Pak. Common people of urban pak do not possess modern luxouries in general. Although in recent years Pak has moved on progress and some people are really rich but the number of these people , as polls indicate , constitutes a very small percentage of its population. 50% of pakistan's population is illitrate and belief and fear from celestial powers is still very common and unarguable in most of the rural Pak and also in urban Pakistan.A large part of its population still lacks basic resources for a healthy life. Other than these basic rooted problems, Pakistan also suffers from bomb-blasts, and violence among communities. I must make it a point that it has also lost 3 wars with its close neighbour India and has continously been blamed of bringing up and spreading terrorism. It has been said to run and support terrorist camps and many of its known leaders have been verified to be engaged in backing such activities. In spite of the darkness of all these problems and inculpations, Pakistan has still managed to create its own identity on world's map. It plays its own moves in the international politics and its moves are not overcome by any nation. There have been a lot of events which could tarnish its image, which could left it as a rag tag country, one of these is the 3 consequetive defeats from its neighbour, which is undoubtedly larger, economically stronger than it, which was more stronger than it at the time of war, had more soldiers, had more weapons and was financially stronger to cope the war. These 3 defeats could wipe out pakistan from the world map but yet, all three times it was pakistan to first declare the war and attack. I must say that R&D in pakistan is not as good as compared to India, yet the nuclear test, It successfully did Right the day after The India tested its nuclear bomb. No matter how but it was successful in obtaining the nuclear bomb,! The overthrowing of the democratic government, followed by the seige of power by millitary, it was definitely a move which caused violence and millitary had to make tough decisions, yet, after all this pakistan successfully accustommed to the ruling junta. Recently, pakistan is being repeatedly accused by Afghanistan's president Hamid Karzai of not controlling terrorism in the northern border area. It has been repeatedly blamed by India for the same. Even Bin Laden is supposed to be hidden in the remote areas of pakistan. Recently its treaty with north western taliban leaders is also undersupect. Yet, it supports U.S. in pursuit to find bin laden and supports U.S. millitary in their search campaigns. I cant really understand how smoothly it promotes terrorism and at the same time how smoothly it walks with US in war against terror.The way it has maintained its relationship with U.S. is simply great and unprecedented. At one look it is teared from inside, an exorbitant large portion of its budget goes to defense rather than development work, and at another sight, it has its own space in world. Recently, General Musharaff said that the U.S. had threatened to bomb it back to Stone Age had it not supported U.S. in its war on terror. The boldness of the statement is clear evidence that pakistan makes its own moves and not feared by any country. Its stand after 3 defeats, its stand after nuclear tests, its stand after the overtaking of power by military over democratic government, its stand after 9/11, its stand after attack on taliban, its stand on Iraq issue, at the same time its relationship with china, its relationship with U.S. and britain and its relationship with terrorist groups like al queda and LeT, all are in contrast with one another, allpoint challenges each other, but yet pak successfully maintains all delicately. In my views the politicians of pakistan have played a pivot role in last couple of years , being a backbone of its existence and image in the world, without which pakistan would have been just another country searching for its existence. This is a baroque architecture of politics placed by the politicians of pakistan which undemandingly deserves a salute and General Parveg Musharaff has simply been one of those great politicians who are sured to be remembered forever as a great ruler who has sieged power from democratic government and has also been choosen democratically !!!
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